Things are becoming difficult day by day.It is a question of survival and I am not doing too well in it...in fact its pathetic. You know when one is desperate for a change, you feel that everything around is slow while you are running to achieve something. Eveyone and everything falls short of completion, and I lose hope in everything.
People tell me once and more that situations need not take control of my well-being. But I wonder, can i blame everything on bad luck or am I incompetent to do anything? Are sweet words good to help me pile up things for another day??
Frustrations and anger can make a person take any step and I am scared ...I hope I don't end up doing something that will mke me regret.
On the contrary, do I have a choice??? At present, its is just full-fleged cribbing and I know lot of people are surely fed-up with it. Its just a matter of time when I get to hear their outburst.
If only I had the power and the control over situations, if only my wish comes true!
Wednesday, October 25, 2006
Friday, October 06, 2006
Numb Uncomfortably!
Is there anybody in there?
Can you hear me?
Come on, I will ease your pain.
I need some information first...show me where it hurts?
Damn, he said, he can't figure where it hurts the most. Its a numbing pain and there is no gain. There is a lot of pain and it wishes to recede. But the pain is stubborn you know. He wants to hurt the child. He wants the child to feel what he feels, cry when he cries and see through his eyes.
The child asks me for help with crying eyes. He asks me, "Why should I feel the pain when its all your doing?" I feel the guilt.
I am knocking at heaven's door. I want to be numb.
Numbness is another word for ignoring. You can always become numb but you can never ignore. I want to be numb, numb to my heart more than anything else.
I want to reach the ultimate peace.
Can you hear me?
Come on, I will ease your pain.
I need some information first...show me where it hurts?
Damn, he said, he can't figure where it hurts the most. Its a numbing pain and there is no gain. There is a lot of pain and it wishes to recede. But the pain is stubborn you know. He wants to hurt the child. He wants the child to feel what he feels, cry when he cries and see through his eyes.
The child asks me for help with crying eyes. He asks me, "Why should I feel the pain when its all your doing?" I feel the guilt.
I am knocking at heaven's door. I want to be numb.
Numbness is another word for ignoring. You can always become numb but you can never ignore. I want to be numb, numb to my heart more than anything else.
I want to reach the ultimate peace.
Tuesday, October 03, 2006
Bangy love!
Today Bangalore is in a sleepy mood. The city is resting after a very long time.
There are no traffic on the roads, shops are closed and the increasing pollution levels have stooped down heavily. All the environmentalists will be thanking the Bandh organised in the State by various qrganisations over the border dispute with Maharastra. But ofcourse, traders and buisnesses across the city will be faring a loss. And I am sure, millions of professionals are welcoming it too but few might be sulking as they will hve to give up a Saturday in work.
I wish there was a camera in my hand right now..then I would have shown you how one of the busiest roads in the city runs empty.
I ain't no lucky professional you know cos right now I am in office. My company provided me utmost security, they got me a cab early in the morning with a lurching security guard. Well, I am sitting in my cabin with the silkboard flyover under my nose. The Whitefield road is absolutely empty, sometimes a car or a bike passes with full speed.
Everyday Bangalore streets are vomitting filth, smoke, dust. Cramped roads, overflowing walkways (with people) and traffic jams. Today she is breating fresh air after a long time. She is breating happiness and I am happy for her.
Apart from thinking about Belgaum and protesting (I am sure they are right in doing that) politicians need to think about Bangalore. She is the silicon capital of the country. I sincerely hope that Bangalore does not become a sinking city. I love her!
There are no traffic on the roads, shops are closed and the increasing pollution levels have stooped down heavily. All the environmentalists will be thanking the Bandh organised in the State by various qrganisations over the border dispute with Maharastra. But ofcourse, traders and buisnesses across the city will be faring a loss. And I am sure, millions of professionals are welcoming it too but few might be sulking as they will hve to give up a Saturday in work.
I wish there was a camera in my hand right now..then I would have shown you how one of the busiest roads in the city runs empty.
I ain't no lucky professional you know cos right now I am in office. My company provided me utmost security, they got me a cab early in the morning with a lurching security guard. Well, I am sitting in my cabin with the silkboard flyover under my nose. The Whitefield road is absolutely empty, sometimes a car or a bike passes with full speed.
Everyday Bangalore streets are vomitting filth, smoke, dust. Cramped roads, overflowing walkways (with people) and traffic jams. Today she is breating fresh air after a long time. She is breating happiness and I am happy for her.
Apart from thinking about Belgaum and protesting (I am sure they are right in doing that) politicians need to think about Bangalore. She is the silicon capital of the country. I sincerely hope that Bangalore does not become a sinking city. I love her!
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