These were mixed feelings when the cake was kept in front of me and people sang the age old eternal birthday song. Was I really celebrating my birthday that day? I don't know as I sat staring at the walnut cake kept in front of me. Neither was I sad about being born on the first of may. All I was reminded was of the song first of may by bee gees.
When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.
Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you don’t ask the time of day.
But you and i, our love will never die,
But guess we’ll cry come first of may.
Birthday brings in new thoughts, new dreams and desires to live for. Its been the same with me this time. Well, its just my 23rd year..I have a long life ahead. I dream of moving into something better and brighter. Something thought provoking and more satisfying for my soul. That is something I find within..as I sit among mixed matched friends and celebrate my birthday. Nothing great about the first of may .. just that it is a new day, a new world for me. A floral dress, lovely food and groups of friends joyously celebrating my shift to being more mature, smart and a responsible girl.
Hoping to live up to the demands of the 23rd year in my life. But my heart aches to live in the skies. The world of imagination becons me to become emotionally independent..(something that I shall find always difficult). To let life take care of itself.
Sunday, April 30, 2006
Tuesday, April 18, 2006
This is my India
Someone once said, " India being a multi-linguistical, multi-cultural country, needs to be rational. But Indians are quite irrational in their approach." We live in a country where irrationality rules our politics.
We belong to a culture that worships gods and demi-gods. The day Rajkumar died, southern region of Karnataka came to a standstill. The city of Bangalore had a deserted look by five in the evening as pan shops, petrol bunks; restaurants were moaning Anavaru’s death.
This was expected to happen as Rajkumar is considered as the soul of Karnataka. I heard that he was a good actor. However, closing down a vibrant city on the death of an actor was quite irrational.
We don’t realise that emotions and logic do not go together. Similar incidents took place in Tamil Nadu when MGR died. History will repeat itself when eminent film stars and politicians leave their mortal soul.
I won’t crib about hero worship, all I would say that when I see people believing swami’s and baba’s as avatars of god, reel stars are real life hero’s, saints and mahatma’s doing miracles that India is still a mystic land.
We may become a global powerhouse but the crux will still remain the same. We will still moan and have bandhs when an actor dies.
Girls will still cry when Shahrukh Khan dies in a movie.
We belong to a culture that worships gods and demi-gods. The day Rajkumar died, southern region of Karnataka came to a standstill. The city of Bangalore had a deserted look by five in the evening as pan shops, petrol bunks; restaurants were moaning Anavaru’s death.
This was expected to happen as Rajkumar is considered as the soul of Karnataka. I heard that he was a good actor. However, closing down a vibrant city on the death of an actor was quite irrational.
We don’t realise that emotions and logic do not go together. Similar incidents took place in Tamil Nadu when MGR died. History will repeat itself when eminent film stars and politicians leave their mortal soul.
I won’t crib about hero worship, all I would say that when I see people believing swami’s and baba’s as avatars of god, reel stars are real life hero’s, saints and mahatma’s doing miracles that India is still a mystic land.
We may become a global powerhouse but the crux will still remain the same. We will still moan and have bandhs when an actor dies.
Girls will still cry when Shahrukh Khan dies in a movie.
Thursday, April 13, 2006
A fortnight in heaven
Never knew that 15 days would pass in a wiff. It was like we were making a mental note of everything we were doing or saying. Cherishing every single moment we are spending in each others company. I was looking forward to this relief of 15 days for two months now. But it turned out to be a hectic fortnight as well. Meeting him in the mornin and then go to work in the sunny afternoon. But you forget your aches and pains when you love someone very passionately and thats what I did.
The trip to wonderla, the staying up whole night and just listening to the conversations he and his friends had. The booze sessions that would go up till 4 in the morning. These 15 days would be my most cherishable days ever. Well, we did have our little fights, mood offs, mushy talks...attentions seeking in these 15 days. But the real bolt came last night, when I was in IIM with him. We were waiting at the terrace for the daru janta to join us when he said ther he did not want me to see him off at the station. I was eager to see him off at the station, when I see tears in his eyes. Seein men cry is the worst thing, believe me. I can never see my dad or brother cry. It pricks my heart...it pricks more when your love cries. Later when booze had taken all over us, friends dilly dallied to their rooms, tears came rolling down my cheek as well. We cried in each others arms saying words that are embedded in my brain 'will miss you'. Today he is leaving for ISB, aspiring to be a manager within a year. I wished him all the best for life..donno when we will meet again. Well, Hydrabad is not that far :-)
I have that little hope in me that we would be together even though families may not agree. I have faith in GOD above and I have faith in my love.
The trip to wonderla, the staying up whole night and just listening to the conversations he and his friends had. The booze sessions that would go up till 4 in the morning. These 15 days would be my most cherishable days ever. Well, we did have our little fights, mood offs, mushy talks...attentions seeking in these 15 days. But the real bolt came last night, when I was in IIM with him. We were waiting at the terrace for the daru janta to join us when he said ther he did not want me to see him off at the station. I was eager to see him off at the station, when I see tears in his eyes. Seein men cry is the worst thing, believe me. I can never see my dad or brother cry. It pricks my heart...it pricks more when your love cries. Later when booze had taken all over us, friends dilly dallied to their rooms, tears came rolling down my cheek as well. We cried in each others arms saying words that are embedded in my brain 'will miss you'. Today he is leaving for ISB, aspiring to be a manager within a year. I wished him all the best for life..donno when we will meet again. Well, Hydrabad is not that far :-)
I have that little hope in me that we would be together even though families may not agree. I have faith in GOD above and I have faith in my love.
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Jaanu says the following:
1. My name: Sri
2. Where did we meet?: In my house (404)
3. How long have you known me?: About 10 months
4. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?: A lot
5. When you first saw me what was your first impression? Girl wth no attitude, hassle free
6. Mi birthday?: Labor Day
7. Hair colour?: Black..u got it coloured but it does'nt show :)
9. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? Hmm...you are hot!!
10. What's my fav type of music?: Coldplay...I dunno what type it is
11.What's one of my fav things to do outdoors?: shopping
12. Am I shy or outgoing? outgoing
13. Would you consider me a friend?: Yes
14. Have you ever seen me cry? If yes, when?: Many times
15. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be? Doll
AM I………. ?!?!?!?
17. Quiet or loud? Mixture of both
18. Short or Tall: short
19.Weird or original: original
20. Smart or stupid? smart
21. Boring or Fun? fun
22. Attractive or Unattractive? Attractive
DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it)
23.A psycho? no
24.Athlethic? no
25. A nerd? no
26. Two-faced? no
27.Immature? a little
28. Mature? yup
JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS
29. What is the worst thing about me? Lending a shoulder to almost anyone
32. What song(if any)reminds you of me? Fix you
33. Do I remind you of any characters on TV? Will let you know once when I figure this out
34. If you could rename me, what would my name be? Your name is preety I would'nt change it
35. A feature that you like about me as a person: sensible
36. If you could give me anything, what would it be? lots of happiness
37. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be? cute
38. What word do I say all the time? Listen Listen
39. Is there anything you'd like to say to me? Be urself...don't change even for me
2. Where did we meet?: In my house (404)
3. How long have you known me?: About 10 months
4. How well do you know me (a lot, not so much, nothing)?: A lot
5. When you first saw me what was your first impression? Girl wth no attitude, hassle free
6. Mi birthday?: Labor Day
7. Hair colour?: Black..u got it coloured but it does'nt show :)
9. Do you remember the first things I said to you when we first met? Hmm...you are hot!!
10. What's my fav type of music?: Coldplay...I dunno what type it is
11.What's one of my fav things to do outdoors?: shopping
12. Am I shy or outgoing? outgoing
13. Would you consider me a friend?: Yes
14. Have you ever seen me cry? If yes, when?: Many times
15. If there were one good nickname for me, what would it be? Doll
AM I………. ?!?!?!?
17. Quiet or loud? Mixture of both
18. Short or Tall: short
19.Weird or original: original
20. Smart or stupid? smart
21. Boring or Fun? fun
22. Attractive or Unattractive? Attractive
DO YOU THINK I'M... (yes or no, if u wanna say something extra say it)
23.A psycho? no
24.Athlethic? no
25. A nerd? no
26. Two-faced? no
27.Immature? a little
28. Mature? yup
JUST A FEW MORE QUESTIONS
29. What is the worst thing about me? Lending a shoulder to almost anyone
32. What song(if any)reminds you of me? Fix you
33. Do I remind you of any characters on TV? Will let you know once when I figure this out
34. If you could rename me, what would my name be? Your name is preety I would'nt change it
35. A feature that you like about me as a person: sensible
36. If you could give me anything, what would it be? lots of happiness
37. If you could describe me in one word, what would it be? cute
38. What word do I say all the time? Listen Listen
39. Is there anything you'd like to say to me? Be urself...don't change even for me
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