Hypocritically polite

Making a prejudicious comment is becoming part of everyone these days. Probably its just a way to give vent to our frustrations. A recent event or rather a rift with a "not so close friend" has left me in the foulest of moods possible. I never knew a casual remark can turn harmful and bitter relations. It actually started in a stupid and joking manner, when a Pg mate of mine (whom I shall refer as doc) was on a conversation with her boyfriend. She wished to involve me in the conversation and handed the phone to me. A query from her guy on whether doc is punctual about her food.
The guy does have peculiar way of talking and I was amused by it. He sounded neither American, or British but a starnge mixture of both. That provoked a funny remark from me which was immediately passed on to him. This was enough to cause a rift and a series of e-mails started.

Well, I guess I was rude, but arent we all like this? Umpteen times I have heard associates telling me " I hate bengalies." " Hello, will you do that story please." Or sometime pass comments on my attire. Yes, they do hurt but I have never made an issue out of it or confronted my friends for it. As I am scared to be called overtly sensitive. (Being sensitive is considered as a weakness.) These are mallicious comments and probably gives the person a sense of joy.

The garb of sweetness in us has vanished. Now, its pure buisness and nothing else. I too have taken up the snappy attitude. If you are being rude with me, why the hell should I be good and polite with you.

There have been times when I have lashed out at my friends. Told them things that I should not, however, nothing made a difference. As people continue to be as they are and do what they like to do. Its a cool statemnt to be rude and have an attitude. Sadly, these people are bloated up with false pride and confidence and their vision in fogged.

I have friends who expect me to give them attention all the time. Some have even remarked openly, "Sri, you don't care for me these days." Seriously, I am left surprised, to what level my caring and sharing capabilities should be.