birthday wishes

These were mixed feelings when the cake was kept in front of me and people sang the age old eternal birthday song. Was I really celebrating my birthday that day? I don't know as I sat staring at the walnut cake kept in front of me. Neither was I sad about being born on the first of may. All I was reminded was of the song first of may by bee gees.
When I was small, and christmas trees were tall,
We used to love while others used to play.
Don’t ask me why, but time has passed us by,
Some one else moved in from far away.

Now we are tall, and christmas trees are small,
And you don’t ask the time of day.
But you and i, our love will never die,
But guess we’ll cry come first of may.

Birthday brings in new thoughts, new dreams and desires to live for. Its been the same with me this time. Well, its just my 23rd year..I have a long life ahead. I dream of moving into something better and brighter. Something thought provoking and more satisfying for my soul. That is something I find within..as I sit among mixed matched friends and celebrate my birthday. Nothing great about the first of may .. just that it is a new day, a new world for me. A floral dress, lovely food and groups of friends joyously celebrating my shift to being more mature, smart and a responsible girl.
Hoping to live up to the demands of the 23rd year in my life. But my heart aches to live in the skies. The world of imagination becons me to become emotionally independent..(something that I shall find always difficult). To let life take care of itself.